So I seem to be off the ball with the blog a little at the moment. I have been a bit poorly, and that has meant I have been going to bed at 8:30pm, living off Lemsip and feeling generally quite sorry for myself. So much so, that I actually had to admit defeat and not go into work, which I never do. And it made me realise, that actually mama gets exhausted too.
I spent my first day ever, in my house alone and doing literally no housework since we moved in last December. I would say it felt really weird, however to be honest I spent the whole day in a sleep filled daze and so I can’t say I really enjoyed my chill out!
When Matt came home I could not stop apologizing to him for the fact that I hadn’t loaded the dishwasher with that mornings breakfast bowls, and that the dirty washing basket was still as full as it was when he left. He looked at me as though I was speaking some foreign language. He couldn’t understand why I would even try to do half of those things when I was ill, and I found it hard to explain that, even when I am a little bit sick I still do all of those jobs. Bless him, he basically sent me back to bed and when I woke up the next morning the house was spotless. Maybe I should get sick more often!
What I am getting at here is that sometimes, as a mom, I think we expect too much from ourselves, and we never give ourselves a break. When our children are babies, we expect that we will be up all night with them and then wake up bright eyed and bushy tailed for that days baby rhyme time class. And when we wake up with bags under out eyes, our hair in desperate need of washing and baby sick on most of our clothes we are far too harsh on ourselves.
We expect to have perfectly behaved toddlers and then feel embarrassed when they loose their shit over a packet of wotsits in the middle of the isle in Tesco. When we think that people are looking at us disapprovingly, they mostly aren’t. I know for a fact that most are looking and either think a) that’s normally me or b) mentally sending encouragement vibes because of a!
Mama’s we need to be kinder to ourselves. To remember that the world is not against us and that we are allowed to be ill some times. We can be tired and do you know what, it is okay if you just cannot be arsed that day. Shove some fish fingers and waffles in the oven and sit down with a coffee and sod the world. Who cares if your child is ripping up an empty toilet roll tube across your living room, you were going to vacuum anyway, and does it really matter that they have covered themselves in Peppa pig stickers? Saves them being on your TV.
Like I said, the world is not against us, it is behind us all the way, cheering us on and telling us that yes, leggings are still acceptable however close to 4 years old your baby may be!
Until next time…